who am i?

my quest for th ultimate answer to this question led me to many roads. recently i had this awakening. part of the reason i have a hard time realizing the answer is because i have forgotten to include the one important aspect of my being: I am a Filipino. A true blooded citizen. Born and breed in this country which to me is like one big disfunctional but happy family.

They can say anything against my country...it maybe true but its no reason for me to abandon my identity and wish i'm somewhere else. para sa ako natawo ko dinhi wala ko'y rason para talikdan nako akong pagka Pilipino.

Our country in sad state. Politically its chaotic and in the world's eyes its a soar. i can't blame them if they know nothing about our country aside from its negative sides. We're not like America who can pay the best persons to make their country look good to the point of being heavenly. They can afford to hire even the devil himself to make the best edvertisement straight out of the remnants of "you will be like God" advertising in the garden of Eden for them.

The thing is i'm tired of looking at the youth of my generation swimming in materialism and self-indulgence. Not even thinking about what they can do for their country. As if what matters is getting the latest cellphone model and that serving your country is like what you do when your really old or as a hobby when it should be like eating or breathing!

But the sad reality is it seems that majority of us doesnt want to be a Filipino at all. they'd rather be identified with some other country. i dont know for what reason they'd feel this way. In my experience it was meanly due to being uneducated, being egnorant of my own culture and not giving a thought about my rule in nation building. I thought buying 'made in the Phils" labeled goods and paying taxes were enough but no. Its about our actions, our dreams and our ambitions...we must include our country in our visions too.

i look forward to the day when change will dawn on our nation. I do hope its my generation who will make this possible. How i wish we'd be the vanguard for change in our country. For now i think it will be like a dream but im not losing hope. we may not be a superpower but to see our pride as a nation getting restored in each of us that would be sweet.

the realization on these were awaken nang mabasa ko ang mga libro ni Bob Ong gaya ng Bakit baliktad Magbasa ng Libro ang mga Pilipino at ang Ang Tundo Man May Langit Din ni Andres Cristobal Cruz...My hope is sana you people will take time to read their works and seriously think about your being called a Filipino.

call center and all that crap

i know you're nt suppose to shit where you eat but i'm doing it anyway, coz the thing is im sick and tired of all these shit they're saying that call center is the future. i mean man this is exactly one of the reasons our heroes fought and died for; so that we wont be treated like shit by foriegners anymore. but look at us now....and we dont even have to go abroad to get treated like shit by them. we can get it here in our own country, thanks to these call centers. will...i know i shouldnt be philosophyzing this since today its really all about the money. But im just sick of being screamed at for things i didnt do, eating all those shit american callers tell me about my being from the Philippines. And shit i'm even writing this crap in English!

you might say i should just eat all of it since i'm making money out of it anyway...that's exactly the reason they dont respect us, coz they think we're so poor that we'll take in whatever it is that they throw at our faces...will i have anough of it.

Truth is working in a call center and coming across self-absorbed Americans all the time makes me wanna bomb America sometimes. It makes me wish to see America will sink into oblivion so these damn americans can stop feeling like the world revolves around them, and so they'll stop feeling like they are gods that we aught to worship...actually you dont have to be a Taliban to have reasons to bomb America....

top reasons to bomb america:

burgers
britney spears and her minions
the dominance of whiteness
hiphop
the war in iraq