what's on the next bend?

i went to have a urine test yesterday. if i'm pregnant that should confirm it. but i dont think i am. i think i'm just freaking out prematurily but i'm just making sure. the thing is that everytime i think of the possibility of being pregnant right now really makes my gut jump up my throat. anyways... i'll be waiting for the result and i hope for the best and i'll never ever again subject myself to this delimna again. i'll be using condoms...joke... i'm saying no to sex until the right time comes from now on.

anyway...i'm excited about quiting my job because that would mean i'll have the time to start a business probably back home. i wasnt really sold on going back home but i think i have to. my life is spinning out of control in here. the job is killing me. the pay doesnt even matter anymore. i have plans for the next few months...my target date would be march 15...by then its quits for me here... its uncertain what's gonna happen to me without a job but i'm saving up for it. right now i'm carefully planning out my fall back...